Plan B

i realize i might not have outlined my plans, fully and some people may still be confused about why Plan C is C. Plan A is simple, it’s to find a job doing linux admin work, somewhere, somehow. silicon valley offers soulless money, somewhere else might offer compassion, who knows, my eyes are open.

Plan B is to do something positive to effect change using my words and thoughts. i idolize Bill Hicks and his ability to effectively use his anger and words when he was on stage. i could see doing that, myself. i have a way of captivating people when i speak, in person. i am undeniably effective at being heard, in person. my efficiency with the written word is questionable, and i need a real bright (and patient) editor to help me there.

something i hadn’t considered was actually pursuing or investigating a teaching position somewhere. i wrote that idea off a while back, because i don’t like debt, and i just paid off my Bachelor Degrees and i am not looking forward to accruing debt again. so i don’t want to find a masters or phd program, because i don’t want to be bothered with a) finding it and b) paying for it.

maybe when Plan C (really should just be called The Plan from now on) engages and i find some peace in this world, i will find the strength to help myself find a way to become a professor somewhere. i have what it takes, i have zero doubt about that. i would be a brilliant professor.

i just can’t be arsed to see the point to dedicating my life to that, right now. yes, i can help some people, but it’s not going to make a difference. help me see how i can be a help, help me regain faith in that life goal. if you have a way to help make this easier on me, by knowing of a program (or hey, maybe you teach a PhD program), i would be ever grateful for your support.

i don’t ask for much, i want to teach in a small town, at a small university, where i can live a simple life. if i can’t have the simple life, i need to at least still be able to teach, and that is where being recognized as an expert in my field is also helpful. if i can’t have that, i want the road; i want to tour and experience life, i want to race rally; i want to drive.

if you care about me, help me drive.

if you care about the world, help me teach.